Allowing, How Do I Allow This?
July 30th, 2009
“There will be a time, not so far from now, that you will look back on this phase of your life and instead of condemning it or beating up on it… Instead of blaming or guilting, you will feel appreciation for it, because you will understand that a renewed desire for life was born out of this time period that will bring you to physical heights that you could not have achieved without the contrast that gave birth to this desire.”
— Abraham
As I move along my path of enlightenment I am challenged, over and over, to allow something, everything, to just be as it is without judgment or struggle or worry. Some things are just too hard to allow to be. Or so they seem at the beginning. I know, now, that this is the only path for me, the path of acceptance and allowing so I know it is my work to find value in all that I come across.
It really doesn’t matter what I have stumbled over at this time, it only matters that I find a new way to look at “it”. And even a way to value what is. And then I will be loving unconditionally, and be free of the attachment. When I find fault in something I anchor it to me. It is only when I accept and allow and find value that I let go and enjoy the freedom that is me.
Sometimes finding a new way to view something takes some time but it is always worth it, always. Holding onto views of wrong, guilt, and bad are like tying rocks onto a birds foot. Let them go and that bird can soar.
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Stillness
June 11th, 2009
Within the last month or so I’ve come to a new experience in myself. There is a pervading stillness, not something I work to hold on to or meditate to bring about. Just a stillness that is there anytime I notice it. I still talk to others and watch movies, and give my attention to cleaning house or working on one of my projects. But while I am occupied and when I am done, there it is, a stillness and quietness.
I do know how I got here. I spent almost two years in personal inquiry, kind of like what Byron Katie does, kind of like the work of the Western Mystery Schools. But for sure my own private personal work of asking the hard questions and listening for the answers. Some days during the past two years I have spent 4 or more hours a day on this work. Every day, and I mean every day, at least 2 hours. Early morning, quiet hours with my journal and my tarot cards and my green tea. Writing and feeling and asking and being met by mySelf who knows. I journal this in my book and my blog. Then as abruptly as I started I knew I was finished with that work, that I had used my mind to understand and realized and know and that coupled with my desire and determination had brought me to completion. I went through my parents each of them and my children each of them and I found the projections and the forgotten decisions and I rewired myself with new ideas about my world and myself. And I cried and laughed and brought myself to anger and let go of everything you can imagine. It was my own path, a beautiful path and all the while I knew I would come to what I wanted.
And I have…… I have come to see the joy and love and beauty in everything, everything, and I have come to really love myself and I’ve become faithful to myself. And I’ve come to feel the most wonderful love flowing from me to others. But the most astonishing and wonderful and beautiful thing is this peace and stillness.
When I came to the end of my personal work, I knew it was time to let go of what I called “figuring things out”. So when I would find myself figuring I would stop and wait for the answer. This waiting for the answer is something I have done here and there over the last 30 years. But now it became something I applied to everything. Then came a knowing that i was never really doing anything, that it was always I who was at the helm of my life. So I gave up all worry and concern, and began to let go very deeply about anything that was lingering. And then this most wonderful peace came. The silence and the stillness.
I am still human, of course, and I still have some emotion, but it is nothing like it used to be and it is mostly tears of thankfulness for where I’ve come from to where I am. And I know that every day of my life has been valuable and wonderful. Even if I didn’t know it then, I know it now.
I’ve tried not to write too much about my success so that I wouldn’t engage in anything that isn’t humble and gentle. But this is the post that comes to me and I won’t be afraid to write as I know and trust that I, the One me, writes and lives and is.
Many loving thoughts of you, the greater part of me; from me, a small part of you.
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Glass Half Full
June 9th, 2009
Have you ever noticed how much we talk about problems, or about what we don’t want or about helping others (which implies they need help), or how to get more money (which implies we don’t have enough), or this or that or whatever?!
Two days ago something happened to me, I don’t know what to call it, but I know what’s different. Suddenly and without warning, I am noticing what a good day people are having. Everybody I meet has plenty to be thankful for in my eye. The server, has a job. The lady at the bank knows well what she is doing and has a comfortable job. The man at the restaurant is enjoying his food. My children are having the life of their choosing and are right on track. All that I want comes easily to me. I just know this now. No more struggle, no more judgment. Just lovely people having their day. And all really is well. There is so much to enjoy and be thankful for, so much. I can see this now. And suddenly the cup is half full. And the issues people are working with aren’t problems but opportunities to move toward that which they want. It is a kind of opening. Without fear, opening.
This has come right on the heels of another beautiful awareness I have been having. And that is one of surrendering and trusting everything, one by one, to my Greater All Knowing Self. Me, trusting me. Really trusting, no more control. No more figuring anything out. But just waiting for answers to come. And clarity to come. And it comes, easily and freely.
The surrendering has come just after ending my own personal work. Well, I guess we never really end our process of maturity, but a long chapter has closed, after almost two years of intense personal searching and questioning. I talk a lot about this in my blog posts. In fact, that is the reason I am writing this here. This blog and my book document the path I’ve taken toward awakening. Not that it has any great importance, only that I want to keep the remembrance.
Life is new, it’s not what I thought it would be. It is fresh and free and really peaceful.
I know a post like this may or may not feel so good to you. And that’s ok. But, if it’s what you want, I can show you how to get here. Either by reading and applying the ideas in my free book and blog posts or by contacting me. I won’t waste your time. I’ll work with you freely in love and freshness. Or not. I am allowing my teaching to unfold in the timing and ways of my greater nonphysical Self. And I know what I need to know, as I need to know it. And I……. am really enjoying the peace and love and joy.
I can’t imagine what might come along to knock me away from my connection. But if it does, I am trusting myself to stay aware and come back to myself.
Thanks to everybody who follows along here with me. I love and appreciate you.
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Trusting and Allowing Myself
June 4th, 2009
I am coming to know that when I simply allow myself to be, whatever I am at the moment, I free myself to become who I really want to be. And after all this time of wanting and working to be me so much and wanting to grow so much I realize that I can have all that I want without giving up anything I really want, and that I can have it all.
I’ve never given up anything, I’ve really only gained. Because letting go of something was always about letting go of my perception about something and finding another, much more helpful way to see it.
When I allow me, just as I am, whether it be to sit for two or four hours to watch TV or whether it be to eat a bag of candy, I am knowing that when I do that, allow myself what I really want this moment, I am loving myself, I am not fighting with myself, I am not criticizing my self , I am not trying to make myself do something. I am just gently lovingly and allowing myself to be, this is where my freedom starts. And soon, after I let go of all judgment of myself I feel loved and cared for and I don’t want that candy, I just don’t want it right now, and I want to clean house instead of just sitting there watching TV.
And so much more importantly I stop the fight. I just stop. And I let love come back into my life. I open up to trust myself and when I do that I open up to trust Myself. Things start to move and loosen up and I get ideas about things I want, new ways of seeing come to me, Things start to drift by me that I want. I feel loved and honored and respected and cherished and then, I know that I was here all along. Me- one with all that is.
And then something really fantastic happens, I can love others in the way I’ve always wanted to, and I can feel that love flowing through me. And it is such a joyous feeling, to know that I’ve come home to myself. And that I accept and allow myself to be and the life I have been dreaming of actually begins to come to pass right before my eyes.
I am love and I open to it. That little girl that I knew so long ago who just loved openly, has come back to me. And now I know how to love her and embrace her and allow her to be.
And if I hit a snag and all I want to do is eat candy, I’m going to let myself, because I know if allowed to be I will snap right back to remembering my own energy and my own being. I trust myself and I am one.
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Allowing That Which You Really Are
May 21st, 2009
“You are killing more of each other every day over your quarrels over religion than all other things put together, because you cannot even come to an agreement about what you think God says, or wants for you. On one side of the world God wants something different than the other. On one side of the room, in one side of your mind, God wants something different than on the other. The power is within you. You are extensions of this powerful Source Energy. You are literally God expressing in this physical body. And so, as you are standing in a thought, or in a word, or in an action that feels good to you as you are standing there–then you are fully open and allowing all of that Divine Energy to flow through you. And in that moment you are all that you said you would be when you decided to come forth into this body. You are the extension of pure positive energy. You are in your full creative power. You are thriving. You are clear-minded. You are joyful. You are filled with love. You are who you are–you are allowing that which you really are.”
— Abraham
I love Abraham. These words of wisdom seem to cut through any confusion or concepts or misunderstandings. They remind me that I want to offer my words here on my blog, knowing that I am speaking to myself first and foremost. After that, if you or another reader finds clairity or love in them then that is my desire. This is a personal journey we are on and nobody knows what is between you and your voice better than you. I appreciate so much this entire collaboration, Abraham speaking, you and me listening and valuing. Thanks for stopping by and for reading.
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Dispensing Wisdom
May 11th, 2009
I think I’ve been an unconscious wisdom dispenser for a long time. How do I know? Because I get so upset when I see others doing it. You know what I mean, somebody telling you what you don’t want to hear, haven’t asked to know and usually already know for yourself better than the teller.
I have decided to allow others to figure out their own stuff. After all, each one of us is Source Energy, and each one knows best for themselves.
I’ll answer if someone asks, gently with an eye to my own humility.
Tending to my business on my side of the street. My business, I am becoming aware, is a very lovely and awesome subject.
How do I really know what another needs to hear, and how do I know when the timing is right? I can’t.
My own life is the only communication that can really be heard.
When I do express, as here on my blog, or in my books, I want to own what I say as my own experience or my own understanding. Expressing first for myself, then trusting that my life can be of benefit to the greater me. And if not, that is fine too. Never with the attitude that I know more, or that somebody is messed up or wrong or needy in any way.
And with this ownership, I can finally let go of my grudge against those who I see dispensing wisdom and step out of the picture completely. And I can enjoy peace and freedom in this area.
Thanks for reading.
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Finding the Lost Child
April 2nd, 2009
When I was 8 years old my parents stepped up their war with each other. During the prolonged months before they finally separated, I was 8 and 9 years old. I remember spending a lot of time on the couch watching TV. I also remember being very sick during this time. I had no idea why and neither did anybody else in my house. Now I know I was responding to my own feeling of helplessness because I couldn’t save my parents. I also know now that it was a projection, I was very concerned about myself.
In the last few days I have gone back to that house and sat with that alone child, eventually she came to me and was ready to leave with me. She wanted to rearrange the furniture, get rid of a lot of junk my parents had and finally clean up the yard before she left. We did this. And we left, now that house is empty and dark. I know, I have been back, just to make sure.
I now know that the huge haunting desire I’ve had all my life to help others comes from the view of that child of 8 who wanted so much to make things better for herself and her family she loved. And now, as a result of bringing her forward to the present, I can redecide about this subject of helping others.
Here’s my new decision. Everything is a projection. If I see others as needing my help, I am seeing myself as needing help. So, I am choosing to focus my attention on myself and my business. I am owning the projection. And I am knowing that all is well. By listening to the voice of that child and helping her to see from a broader position, I teach and comfort myself with the knowing that all really is well and that I can focus my attention on me and what I’m doing, just like I did before the war. I embrace the attitude that none of us is really in any danger and that we are each only able to change our own circumstances. This heals my childish desire to save others. If I’d had a grandmother with this wisdom she’d have told me this then. Now I have the wisdom within myself to teach myself.
The benefits of this view: I am free not to be concerned about anybody else and to focus on me, here, now. I demonstrate that all is really well. I move toward the desires of my heart. And about helping others, I want to help others, but it’s not the same, it is a desire that comes from a place of connection to Source, followed by an allowing and a knowing and then an experience, a flow. I’ve given up the concern.
My Grandmother would have told me, and I tell myself, that we are truly all one being. With the greater part of ourself in nonphysical, we cannot really die, or be hurt and the best way to help myself and/or others is to come to believe this and move on with my life. I’d be able to see this demonstrated in her life, and I would be able to feel the vibration of this knowing and it would make sense to my free child mind.
So, once again, I lovingly listen to my lost part, understand, and give ideas that refresh and free my little child. I become my own wise parents and I love and trust myself.
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Helping
April 1st, 2009
Grasping to help is never-the-less grasping.
Needing to help is never-the-less needing.
Concern about whether or not I’m helping, is never-the-less concern.
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Back Up and See
March 22nd, 2009
Take a few steps back from something and it looks different. A few more, different still.
When the sages instruct us to let go of the world, that’s what they mean. Step back until you see things from a new perspective, over and over and over until you notice you can step completely out of the picture. ‘To be in the world but not of it’, as one sage put it.
One of the challenges for us is the desire to bring everybody with us. We can get hung up here. When we look at the state of the world, or when we see the frustration or pain of anther we want to help. We feel we cannot go forward because we would be abandoning others and that would be very selfish.
Here’s what’s going on:
1. The desire you feel to help is real, it’s you and it’s love.
2. Through their deep desire to help and their realization that we are all One Being, the sages have found another much more powerful way to help.
3. The sage can see as he moves further away, that we are together -One Being- and that each life, each one of us, effects the whole being. Like the cells in your arm. Each one has an effect on the whole. So, if one of the whole becomes open to the flow of life, the source, that one creates a powerful opening that allows the reception of life for the entire organism.
As one person he may only be able to effect a portion of the forearm with this vitalized energy. But the sage understands it only takes a few openings by a few sages to really change the whole organism.
4. The sage chooses to follow the voice of his soul. And comes to understand that he cannot tune in to his own voice without quieting or disconnecting from the voices of this world. So he begins the process of focusing on the voice of his Self.
5. And with the desire to help in place, the sage follows the voice of the inner knowing on a path toward a whole new view of himself and his world.
6. The view from this place he’s been led to by the inner voice is beautiful. He no longer considers the chaotic doing, thinking or feeling of others, he only sees their heart, he recognizes the voice of the self that sings freely and beautifully in everybody, the voice that never went away, but was just covered by the chatter of the world. Now the sage, having tuned himself to that voice within himself, recognizes the same in everyone and everything.
When you meet this person you meet unconditional love. Love that has given up all conditions and flows freely. Love who sees who you really are.
This person changes himself, his immediate world, and the greater collective voice in a very powerful way and demonstrates great peace and joy in so doing.
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Freedom
March 19th, 2009
No matter how you experience this idea of freedom I think it boils down to one thing……I get to do, have, be what I want. I get to make my own choices.
You could divide the stream of life into two parts:
Part 1 Becoming aware of my desire. This is about allowing and feeling:
- Noticing that I want something
- Allowing it to get bigger, if it does
- Feeling to see if I really want it
- Deciding, yes, I really do want that
- Finding the essence of what I want
Part 2 Supporting my desires. This is about appreciating and thinking.
- Finding a way for my desire to be OK with me
- Finding a way to look at what I want that makes it valuable
- Encouraging myself to follow my bliss (another word for what I want)
- Dealing with my thoughts that don’t believe I can, will, should, am worthy of, whatever it is I want.
- Trusting that we can all have what we want here, no matter what it looks like to the contrary.
Moving forward with life means awareness of what I want and the courage to mentally take myself toward it. When you are this lined up with who you are things happen, life starts, new ideas come, people come, opportunity comes.
You are free to persue your life, your way!
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