Allowing, How Do I Allow This?
July 30th, 2009
“There will be a time, not so far from now, that you will look back on this phase of your life and instead of condemning it or beating up on it… Instead of blaming or guilting, you will feel appreciation for it, because you will understand that a renewed desire for life was born out of this time period that will bring you to physical heights that you could not have achieved without the contrast that gave birth to this desire.”
— Abraham
As I move along my path of enlightenment I am challenged, over and over, to allow something, everything, to just be as it is without judgment or struggle or worry. Some things are just too hard to allow to be. Or so they seem at the beginning. I know, now, that this is the only path for me, the path of acceptance and allowing so I know it is my work to find value in all that I come across.
It really doesn’t matter what I have stumbled over at this time, it only matters that I find a new way to look at “it”. And even a way to value what is. And then I will be loving unconditionally, and be free of the attachment. When I find fault in something I anchor it to me. It is only when I accept and allow and find value that I let go and enjoy the freedom that is me.
Sometimes finding a new way to view something takes some time but it is always worth it, always. Holding onto views of wrong, guilt, and bad are like tying rocks onto a birds foot. Let them go and that bird can soar.
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What Am I?
July 26th, 2009
Recently I read “True Meditation” by Adyashanti. He talks about changing identification away from ego, personality and mind. And toward the consciousness or spirit that we truly are. From this new perspective he teaches that our ego, personality and mind are extensions of us as spirit or consciousness. I have heard Abraham say we are extensions of nonphysical for a very long time, but I never quite put it together until now.
As I read the words and followed along with my attention I realized that something had happened to me. I understood, but I have understood for a long time, I knew, but even that word doesn’t really reach all the way around my experience. I moved to a new place within myself. It was not so obvious at the time. Now that several days have passed I am amazed at the nature of the change for me.
Some examples are, I was talking to Ken this morning, going on and on about something I was thinking of. And I had the thought that I have had many times, “I am talking a lot”. Usually I follow this with another thought like, that’s ok or I’d rather not talk so much, or wow a lot of talking. But today I followed up with, that’s just my personality. I love to dance, and I wanted to go dancing with Ken last night. Instead of my normal thinking about this, which is sometimes wondering if that is going to be good for me. I thought, that is just part of my personality. When I watch others I see the difference between their mind or their personality and who they are.
I have given up all exclusion, all is me, some parts are extensions of me for the purpose of experienceing here. I also realize that spirit enjoys every touch of life that goes on here. If I start to feel afraid of something I no longer need to consciously find a better feeling thought, now I just immediately know that I am wonderfully whole and well and safe. How could I not be. This puts my mind at rest.
I am thankful to Adyashanti, this is the first book of his I have read. I have been doing my own work and staying on my own path. But somehow the consciousness that I am put me in touch with the words that moved me from here to there.
I feel a freedom from care, concern and worry for myself and others that I have not understood or experienced before. Also, others, when I look in their eyes I know who they are and their personality, ego and mind are secondary. Just extensions. Valuable extensions.
I have been waiting in a place of not knowing what is next for a while now. I am thankful for this shift of identification and for my beautiful friend Adyashanti.
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Living In My Body
July 23rd, 2009
After all is said and done, after all the ideas and questions and wondering and feeling, who are we? Really, who am I? Who are you? We are consciousness. And where does that consciousness reside? Where does it not reside? It resides everywhere. In every leaf, in every eye, in every drop of rain.
As I look around on other blogs on the subject of spirituality there is a lot of sharing of ideas about spirituality and about who we are and even about consciousness. As much as I love the writers and their words, that’s not where I find consciousness. I find it in my body. Not in my mind. My mind has helped me and continues to help me. I couldn’t be here without my mind. It does an untold number of tasks, some in the background and some that I am aware of. But, it isn’t where I find consciousness. My mind has helped me to uncover and understand and untangle. It is my very good friend. It is not where I find consciousness.
I find counciousness in my body. That is where I reside. That is where I wait for the unknown to become known. I thought it was in my mind. But, it’s not. It’s in my body. I live in my body. How amazing this realization is for me. And how much I am loved and love. How much is all that I desire and love moving toward me, now. I just Am. Here. Now.
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August Rush—Movie Review
July 19th, 2009
August Rush is the name of the movie I saw at home last night on DVD. This was a truly great movie. It is about a little boy in an orphanage who can hear music. And about his quest to find his parents. It is a beautiful story of desire, following you own voice and getting what you want. I’d love to hear what you think.
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An Empty Place
July 18th, 2009
An empty place….Quiet
Shhhhh…listen.
No more words.
Wait for the One.
That which never fails.
Great are the victories.
Gentle are the caresses.
Wait and know.
Empty and refresh.
Surrender and have all.
Shhhhh……no more struggle.
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A New Vantage Point
July 16th, 2009
As I awake from my slumber I find myself at a new awareness about money. It would have been the job of my father to teach me about many things. Trusting myself and listening to my voice within and valuing that voice would have been helpful. So, as I now awaken to my own awareness of the value of this I am also keenly aware of many times in my life when I knew better, but didn’t have the courage, or knowing or whatever to stand up for what I thought. This is nowhere more keenly felt that in the area of money. I have listened to others so I could be loved and accepted and perceived as loving, etc. all my life. Now I can easily see where I knew what would have been the best and I let somebody else decide for us and I followed like I had no head.
As you can probably tell from the tone of this post I am angry with myself about this. My sun is in Taurus and my rising sign is Capricorn. These are both signs that are good with money. I always knew how to handle money, I knew, I remember knowing, but I didn’t have the self assertion needed to speak up and be heard. It is so silly too, I let somebody, a lot of somebodies make the decisions about the money.
Well, not any more. Don’t misunderstand, I don’t really care about having a lot of things. But I do see now that life doesn’t have to be lived on the edge. There is an easy spot. I can see now that it isn’t that hard to find. I can also see that enough money has always easily flowed into my life. I just didn’t speak up about what we did with it.
I am not mad at those who took responsibility for our money. I am not even mad at my Dad who stripped me of my courage and my own right to make my life the way I want it. Well maybe I am a little mad at my Dad. But I am really mad at me. I am not afraid of anger. I know that it always is part of my growth and part of my new understanding. I see anger as the feeling of my own energy coming forth.
It is a new day for me and my family. Now I will teach my children what I didn’t teach them before, even if it is just by example at first. And I will gently and easily guide our money to a place of peace. I love this waking up stuff. I never know where it will lead me next, but it is always practical and helpful to my life right now.
I appreciate all of you who tune in here for my latest updates along my path.
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Jesus, Who Were You?
July 15th, 2009
When I was first stirred to find out about this God I didn’t know, (over 30 years ago now) I went to the Christian Church looking for answers. I spent six and a half years in two different Churches. I was just as serious about it as I am now so I read, studied and memorized the New and Old testaments on a daily basis.
I haven’t forgotten this first love of Jesus. And I think a lot about who he was, why he was here and why he did the things he did.
Imagine the power of having your mother and father believe that you are the one sent from God. And they believe it so strongly because an angel came to them before you were born with this information. All your life you were told that you are the Messiah, the God/Man, the One. Your parents believed it so much that you had no choice but to believe it. You test it and find that the All That Is does respond to you and support you. And your experience of yourself tells you the angel was right. Then you come to realize that every man/woman is exactly the same as you, only they don’t know it.
You feel this powerful love with you always and how can you come to any conclusion except to follow the incredible desire to share what you know. When you look at another you see the truth of their being, not intellectually, but experientially, as you have experienced the truth of your own being. You are still a human being, following this powerful, blinding love. You live in the now, you trust and allow the power that pulses through you and you allow it to be, right here on the earth as only a human being can.
I think Jesus was a very joyful person. And what an impact he had on this place, even after 2000+ years, we continue to have you as one of our most powerful and beautiful examples of who we are. Thank you for being you, I love you still.
This post is an excerpt from my book, The Path of Enlightenment
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Moving Further Along My Path
July 12th, 2009
When I was a very young girl, very young, my father yelled a lot. He never really wanted children, he finally sucumbed to my mothers pressure and I was born. I don’t have a lot of memories before I was 4 but I do know that he didn’t want to hear from me much. I believe he loved me in his way. But he really didn’t want me to exist. He wanted me to shut up and go away and let him be.
I’ve worked my way back through my life, changing my ideas and decisions along the way. For a while I worked with my mind on a logical level. Discovering my own hidden thoughts that create powerlessness and changing my mind in my own favor, thus empowering myself. But then something happened and I couldn’t deal with my ideas of myself with my mind any more and I knew it was time to let go of that way.
Since then I’ve been freeing myself of emotionally charged nonlogical beleifs about myself. Those I picked up, mostly from my parents, before the age of 9 or 10. While I was in the time of associative thinking. The stategy for detatching myself from these erroneous self views is different. Now all I can do is feel and wait. I usually have some idea of what is going on, but not really a way to help myself other than allowing the One I’ve come to trust to see me through.
The situation I describe above is one of those prelogic self views. I can feel it. I feel fear that I will go too far, express too much, or say the wrong thing. I am getting through this. I know that I am. And I also know that when I do I will feel the freedom of a thousand hearts opening. I will have found the me that I was before I was supressed by my very loud father. I very much want to regain this pure and loving view of myself. I want her to feel free to express herself as she chooses. I want her to let go of controlling herself so she feels safe and just be. And I want to give up the voice of my Dad that still lingers that scares me into not opening all the way.
I have come to the place on my journey where even when I am feeling the pain of retrieving a lost part of myself I am still able to feel and know that I am loved and safe. And I’ll say it again, I know that when I get through this storm and regain that innocent little girl part of me all of the heavens will open to me and I will be feel completely back in the flow of grace and love that defys description. I am loved, I know that, not with my head, but with every cell of my being. I am loved and I can only imagine how things will look from the perspective of this free little girl part of me. Each movement back, or inward leaves me at a new vantage point. I can see just who we are more and more and I can know my connection to my Source, the One, the All That Is.
There is true beauty in my life. I am loved and I want to share what I’ve learned. Let me know if I can be of service to you in some way as you travel your personal path of enlightenment.
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Unconditional Love
July 9th, 2009
I’ve made a decision. I want all of my relationships to be based on unconditional love. There are a lot of people out there who understand and respond to love, in fact most of us do. Isn’t it so wonderful to relate to someone on this basis. To find the lovely aspects and to focus on these. There is so much to each one of us. We all have so much to contribute. So much love to give. It’s true, you can take the most grouchy person and begin to love them and see only the beauty in them and either they will turn and show you that side or they will move far away from you.
I saw a video on uTube a few days ago, of Amma, she was just hugging people. I don’t want to hug people all the time, but such love! We all have this within us. Some of us, at certain times, may not be able to get to it, but it is still there.
So, to all who visit this blog, whether you comment or not, it is my great desire that you feel welcome, loved and valued here. And that you know that I know how beautiful you are.
xoxo Anne
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Riding Into The Unknown
July 7th, 2009
This post goes with the previous poem about death. It is a clarification, if you will, about what I was asking for.
Riding into the unknown, death really is unknown, and it can be scary, what would make a normally sane person call out to the unknown, in the form of death, in a way that brings it to her? Desire, the pure desire for the One. Having been in the delightful energy of being loved by the One, I want more, all other desires pale in comparison. I’ve tasted the pure, fresh breath of knowing and being known. I want it only. There is a giving up, always, in order to have something more. It is only my ideas that get in the way.
More and more we can go, deeper and deeper into who we are, dropping, little by little, all false ideas, needs, and beliefs. Giving up completely. Letting it all go, again, for what? What keeps you moving forward? Have you really found something that has changed your life? Don’t you want more of it? But what if I have to let go of something I want to keep, you say? I have never let go of anything I wanted to keep, the One has a way of creating everything in my favor, so that by the time I am giving something up, I am ready and I understand enough of what is going on that I am no longer afraid, and I want to give it up , because I can see how I am held back by it. 
I have come to trust the One enough to be willing to allow myself to be freed of all unnecessary weight. Just like letting go of the body when we leave this earth realm. It is enough to listen to myself today; and then tomorrow, again listen to myself; and on and on. Finding the lost ecstasy of union more and more with each opening. Being filled with an overflow of indescribable sweetness.
Teach yourself not to be afraid of death. We are eternal beings, nothing can change that, and nothing can ever harm us, nothing.
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