Life After Death
May 29th, 2009
My last post was a sharing of my experience of a mini death. Now I want to share about the new life that has come as a result of the death.
I awoke this morning curious about the day, as usual. A few weeks ago I let go of my early morning 
routine that I’d been in for almost two years now. I knew the time had come for something else. So today, I decided to take a walk. As I walked I gently and easily became aware of the beauty of each thing I passed. And I became aware of how I have judged as I have walked before. As I walked by a yard that was well kept and beautiful I would admire it and enjoy it and as I walked by a yard that had junk and trash and wasn’t kept I’d wonder how they could live like this. But not today, today I knew that each yard was beautiful in it’s own way. I saw each weed as perfectly placed. Each bit of trash as lovely and perfect. And I awoke, more to the knowing that all is beautiful and all is just as planned and all is God. The words are course and don’t really carry the realization as I was having it and still am having it.
After my walk and as my day progressed I knew with each event or thought or word that each one was just as it should be, just perfect, in love. And that all that is around me is beautiful. There is nothing to fight with, nothing to judge, nothing to bother with. There really is only love.
I share this with you as a continuation of my last post about death. I have come to know, over time, that death brings a new way of seeing. A deeper understanding of just who we all are. And how beautiful we all are. And a more clear knowing that all I can really do is interfere with that which the One has firmly in hand unless I release, and allow. And even in the interfering I am beautiful, because nothing can ever really be out of place or wrong. And it’s all perfectly ok, just as it is, no matter how it is. Really.
And then I become the one I was when I first arrived. Fresh and free and wild, as Rumi put it…. And part of the garden. And even as I say these words I know if I had never had this awareness I would still be as perfect as I am with the awareness.
My love
Anne
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Death
May 28th, 2009
Death is a withdrawal of consciousness. It’s like taking attention from here and putting it there.
— Abraham
I’ve been working with death the last couple of days. Well really the last couple of years. But specifically, the last couple of days. I’ve been taking off another layer of this world. Just when I think I’ve completely detached from what others feel and think, there it is, me caring.
I have opened a little shop where I sell sunglasses close to the beach. I’ve taken in hand made goods from a few artists. This is something I have dreamed about doing for a long time. I can see the manifestation of my dreams here. And of course, with new growth there are new opportunities. So I have these lovely ladies and their goods all working with me. And it comes up slowly, and grabs me right out of my bliss. I want them to succeed. That is OK, but I also fear their rejection if they don’t. And that somehow it will be my fault. This hits me like a brick.
And so it began, I first had to sort and find what I was worried about. Then I could feel the energy growing in my abdomen, you can call it anger, that’s the closest word I have to describe it. But I couldn’t allow my energy up because it seemed so not right to completely not care what they thought or felt. Then my son came by wanting me to change some behavior. I could see the pain in him. I’ve worked on letting go of what he feels and thinks many times, but right now it got to me.
I started remembering everything I know about letting go and feeling better. And slowly the sales job began to work. Finally I started to allow and feel the energy in my abdomen. The anger. I carried it for several hours. And then as easily as a spring morning I began to feel better. I started to feel my own precious energy, that gentleness that is me. (and all of us) The whole thing took about a day and a half.
The old had died. Not so easily, but it had given way to the life of the spirit. I had let go of my involvement in the thoughts and feelings of anyone except my self.
And with each death comes new life….Now I know that there is no worry or care or concern that I can endure about my suppliers or my son that can make them successful. That is in their hands. I trusted the flow of grace to bring them to me and it has, and I am trusting the flow to bring me customers and that my business will be successful and that includes them. I am also trusting that all of us will receive only love from this flow of grace. But knowing that what others do with that love is totally up to them and none of my business.
About my business, I trust and allow that all that I want comes easily to me, gently and lovingly, in the perfect time and way. And also I know that there is a part of me that knows more about what I want and how to create it than I do consciously in the moment. And that is alright because I know that I am loved beyond my comprehension here. I know because I trust myself and love myself and listen to myself.
I offer these words trusting that they can be of benefit to the greater me….. you…. in gaining clairity, peace and love.
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Spiritual Teachers
May 24th, 2009
It seems to me that spiritual teachers are part of the block to personal awareness. At some point it becomes necessary to stop reaching for the next idea from a teacher and listen to that deep voice that comes from our own self. After all is said and done we each know best for ourself. We have feelings and desires and ideas that are personal. How can another know for me what is best for me. Any teacher worth his or her salt can only tell their students to follow their own heart, soul, desire, voice and love.
Another thing that I’ve noticed is that every teacher must be taken in context. Someone who is miles ahead of me on the path will see things so differently than I ever could. Take a young person in the third grade learning arithmetic, the teacher of real value to that student will be teaching third grade math. She may know any and every kind of math there is but the context of the third grader must be considered if the student is to get the most of the interaction. Let’s say the teacher gives a lesson on tenth grade algebra, the student could become extremely confused. Without having built up to the place where they are ready to hear what the teacher is saying about tenth grade math more confusion can be created instead of clarity.
The same happens with spiritual seekers; the student hasn’t learned to listen to his own voice yet and the teacher is coaching him away from that voice calling it ego. Or the teacher is teaching about stopping thinking and the student has never learned a healthy life promoting way of thinking that moves him toward that which he seeks. Don’t misunderstand, I agree there is a time to halt thinking, but not before we learn how to use the God given ability to think in an adult and healthy way.
At some point we must learn to think and listen for ourselves and to ourselves.
The mark of a mature, awake or enlightened person is the ability to listen to themselves and more to the point, they have given up caring what anybody else thinks including spiritual teachers or ways, or religions or teachings. Yes, if the teaching agrees with the internal knowing then it is valuable, but not the other way around. We have been taught to listen to the teachers, or teachings instead of our own voice.
Come on you guys, sure you may stumble a little, maybe a lot, but isn’t it worth it to learn how to hear your own voice. Especially since that is what we lost soon after we arrived when all the grown ups told us to listen to them instead of teaching us to listen to ourselves. Don’t trade one outer voice for another. And don’t listen to any teacher who doesn’t consistantly tell you to listen to your own voice and that you and only you know what is best for you.
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Allowing That Which You Really Are
May 21st, 2009
“You are killing more of each other every day over your quarrels over religion than all other things put together, because you cannot even come to an agreement about what you think God says, or wants for you. On one side of the world God wants something different than the other. On one side of the room, in one side of your mind, God wants something different than on the other. The power is within you. You are extensions of this powerful Source Energy. You are literally God expressing in this physical body. And so, as you are standing in a thought, or in a word, or in an action that feels good to you as you are standing there–then you are fully open and allowing all of that Divine Energy to flow through you. And in that moment you are all that you said you would be when you decided to come forth into this body. You are the extension of pure positive energy. You are in your full creative power. You are thriving. You are clear-minded. You are joyful. You are filled with love. You are who you are–you are allowing that which you really are.”
— Abraham
I love Abraham. These words of wisdom seem to cut through any confusion or concepts or misunderstandings. They remind me that I want to offer my words here on my blog, knowing that I am speaking to myself first and foremost. After that, if you or another reader finds clairity or love in them then that is my desire. This is a personal journey we are on and nobody knows what is between you and your voice better than you. I appreciate so much this entire collaboration, Abraham speaking, you and me listening and valuing. Thanks for stopping by and for reading.
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Unity, Wholeness, and The Absolute!
May 18th, 2009
The Ego and the Self! This is a polarity, a division, a split! We are – all that is. We just are!
All the things we call ego are just the distorted us.
Distorted for lack of attention!
Paying attention to our own voices, listening to, asking questions and understanding. This is becoming aware, this is waking up!
Then making new decisions about what we want to embrace and letting go of what doesn’t serve us any more.
All that is, is you, me, us. All of it. Is there anything that you can point to and say——-NOT GOD!
No-All God-All You!
Wake-Up and begin to listen to yourself. Do you think your parents listened to themselves, do you think their parents did?
Listen and stop judging yourself.
Every time you call anything “Ego” you are splitting yourself away and it is a judgment.
Stop judging and listen! Listen! Listen! And then unconditionally love what you hear!
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Listening for Our True Voice
May 15th, 2009
Before you read the words here, I want to acknowledge their clumsiness, I speak them from love and with trust.
It seems that fear captures any ideas it can to keep us under control. Using teachings from any spiritual tradition or way to disallow union.
Instead of listening to themselves and understanding I notice many choose to meditate away or stop thinking.
There is a place to give up thinking and for meditation but not to shut down the voice of the inner child that hasn’t ever been heard. I feel it’s imperative to listen to and hear that child and value what is heard and offer comfort and come to understanding. And then to redecide.
The more we listen and value the more we free the voice of ourselves. And the more that voice comes forward and the more we become ourselves.
Spiritual development doesn’t mean getting better and better at quelling the inner voice and emotion so that we don’t feel the stress of our separation. It means listening and allowing ourselves and redeciding and trusting so that we don’t need systems and ways to handle the stress.
The old stresses disappear and new open free life comes forward. And we are no longer usings skills to cope.
Our true self is free to move forward with life enjoying new views and realizing every desire, and openly trusting life.
I don’t speak from anything I read or was taught, I speak from my own experience of finding and listening to my own child’s voice and learning to value that precious voice. And becoming trustworthy (learning not to judge or turn on myself) and being there for myself.
Then, and only then, that person, the real me, little by little has surfaced.
She’s found freedom It’s my job now to stay awake and continure to listen and allow and value.
I offer these words as gently as I know with great love.
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Dispensing Wisdom
May 11th, 2009
I think I’ve been an unconscious wisdom dispenser for a long time. How do I know? Because I get so upset when I see others doing it. You know what I mean, somebody telling you what you don’t want to hear, haven’t asked to know and usually already know for yourself better than the teller.
I have decided to allow others to figure out their own stuff. After all, each one of us is Source Energy, and each one knows best for themselves.
I’ll answer if someone asks, gently with an eye to my own humility.
Tending to my business on my side of the street. My business, I am becoming aware, is a very lovely and awesome subject.
How do I really know what another needs to hear, and how do I know when the timing is right? I can’t.
My own life is the only communication that can really be heard.
When I do express, as here on my blog, or in my books, I want to own what I say as my own experience or my own understanding. Expressing first for myself, then trusting that my life can be of benefit to the greater me. And if not, that is fine too. Never with the attitude that I know more, or that somebody is messed up or wrong or needy in any way.
And with this ownership, I can finally let go of my grudge against those who I see dispensing wisdom and step out of the picture completely. And I can enjoy peace and freedom in this area.
Thanks for reading.
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The Two Worlds
May 7th, 2009
When we live in the ‘World’ we see the world as very real, very solid. When we hear someone talk about the world being an illusion the idea seems strange and confusing. Also, from the perspective of the ‘World’ we see the world of the ‘Spirit’ as far away, magical, and hard to pin down. The spirit world is something we glimpse occasionally with synchronicity, answered prayer, even what we call clairvoyance or clairaudience are partial glimpses into this world. Many of us realize there is more than we can sense with our five senses. Some use the term religion to refer to this knowing, others call it spirituality.
BUT/AND
When we start to cross over from the identification of the world to the spirit we start to see the world as kind of remote and unimportant. An illusion if you will. Also we start to see the spirit world as real and natural and our home. We begin to understand the natural world that is here and value it and enjoy it in a new way. And it’s at that point that we say things like… all that we see is not real, it is an illusion and that all there is, is love, and other things that baffle the one identified with the world.
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It Gets Easier and Easier
May 6th, 2009
You will never reach the place where you will not need to be diligent about your choice of thought. Because you live in a world that is determined to show you every pocket of despair. So you must diligently choose. But it gets easier and easier and easier to do so. Right now, it may feel to you like those moments of Connection are the rare ones. There will be a time when those moments of Connection will feel so normal that it will shock you when you get into a place of disconnection.
Abraham Hicks
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The Real World Code
May 5th, 2009
This “world” is an idea, superimposed over the natural life here.
I am letting go of the idea and waking up to the natural life here that I really am.
Seeing that real life in everything- the pure, wild, free life that flows on uninhibited by the superimposed idea.
The natural flow of life, directed into all that is here.
Created by the information contained in the code embedded into life.
The code that tells the energy to be a begonia or a tree or a dog or Anne.
There is a code. I came with a code from nonphysical based on my desire at that level and I was coded when I got here, stamped so to speak with the real world, the position of the planets and other natural reality.
And I continue to code myself… based on what I desire as I live my life.
All of these make up my code. The way the life energy forms to make life here.
Who I am here. The being of myself, life force, Source energy, coded a certain way. Unique and beautiful.
I don’t need to worry about the code, I can just enjoy the ride and as I do, I continue to code myself and to unfold.
We say we are God, and we say God is endless, well then it isn’t such a stretch to say that I, God, and you, God is still coding who God is becoming.
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