Value/The Father
February 11th, 2009
I like to think of a father who after listening to what the child says responds with words that tell the child that they are valued and that their ideas are good. My father spent a lot of time and energy making sure I got the message that I was small and stupid as a child. It wasn’t his fault it was the message that lived in him. He didn’t want children, didn’t like them and didn’t have time for them.
Now I am free and becoming freer. I have become aware that I am waking up. In order to do this successfully, I give up my fathers view of me. It was really his view of himself. My thoughts are valuable, my ideas are valuable and my questions and answers are valuable.
I have worked on this same issue many times in the past, this time I am making a new decision. I am deciding to let go of some of my sensitivity. A few callouses in the right places will be of great value to me. I could have done this as a child, but I didn’t know what I know now.
I’m learning a more impersonal way to love, one that isn’t so gushy and mushy, but unconditional and free.
I decide again, and again if I need to, that I know what is best for me and that while I love others, their opinion of me lives in the same noise that I have decided to remove myself from.
I am now my own parent, one who loves me unconditionally. That is a true statement.
I share my writings here not so others can support my decisions. I don’t need that.
I share this in the hope that others can hear my words and make decisions to follow their own inner voice and not some ghost voice from the past.
I have heard that very few of us wake up and don’t still have heart work to do. After all, there is a lot further to go on our path, no matter who we have become so far.
As the unconditionally loving father would say, “Have courage and trust yourself and move forward into the life you choose!”
Namaste’
Filed under: The Path of Love